I have been logging Annika’s caloric intake since February. I reached the end of the notebook, so I flipped back through to see what else was in it.
The first page is the list of what I needed to bring to the hospital when I had her!
The next few pages are breastfeeding logs from when I was in the hospital. (They keep you there for 3 days in Germany.) There are two pages of baby names. (She wasn’t named until the day after she was born.) The first is a list of various combinations of the names we had on the list on my phone, written in my handwriting. Then the next page is Jason’s writing, where is pulling completely new names out of thin air that we had never discussed, along with more combinations of the “old” ones. Ironically, “Annika Beatrix” is listed twice by accident on the first page, and again on the second page.
Next comes lists of things to do/ask (make first appointment with pediatrician, call passport office, “belly button,” which was presumably what we had to do with it once we went home.) Then there is a list of paperwork needed for her US Passport (9 items.) Then next page is info on transferring Jason’s GI Bill benefits to Annika.
There is a list of questions for the lactation consultant and weights before and after nursing.
Then there is obviously a break in time…because the next page is lists of high calorie foods that I can puree/add ins/etc. that I got from the nutritionist that I met with in Germany when Annika wasn’t gaining weight well.
There are notes written by two different lactation consultants and daily schedules I wrote out (to keep track of her feeds).
Then we get to notes with questions about the NG tube, along with notes, caloric goals, contact info for doctors at the hospital where we got it put in, and steps to doing a tube feed. There is contact info for a new GI doctor, throw up logs, feeding logs, and blood test results.
Finally we get to the more recent calorie logs. I bought a new notebook yesterday because we are hoping to wean from the tube, which means stringent calorie counting to ensure she doesn’t lose too much weight.
It’s interesting to me because it shows the changing goals and focus of meeting Annika’s feeding needs, and I never even realized that I always grabbed this notebook. (I also ripped pages out here and there to make unrelated lists and notes, so I never deemed it a “feeding notebook.”)
I’m going to keep it so she can look back when she’s older. I’m sure she will say, “whatever mom, you were crazy.”
Now I have to go try to feed her again.